Yeah well....I just want somewhere to keep this cos even though I'm not too impressed with what it means I like the writing...
( He always knew... )

First post got totally messed up, my lj client was playing up, added pictures that I didn't even want and then didn't even show them so here we go again. Second time lucky maybe??
I was playing Word Drop on facebook the other night and guess what word I somehow managed to come up with?? Answer and a thank you behind the cut....
( You know you want to know... )

OMG Work is like totally awesome at the moment. I just had my review and literally the only thing they marked me down on was something that I've yet to be trained in BUT my sales manager totally wants me trained in it, it's so awesome. Both he and my supervisor said they were impressed with the way I'd been working and they way I'd stepped up since one of the team moved departments!! I'm so happy!

ALSO I've been writing!! Which is always good for me- I love it cos I know it means my head is in a good place- which it hasn't really been for a few weeks! I'm currently working on a twilight fic so that's pretty awesome.

So yah just a quick update to say hi and stuff I guess, I think I'm writing this mainly for me though- just to remind myself that things can be good!! x x

I'd tell myself to not be afraid of my feelings, to let people know how I feel about them before it's too late. I'd tell myself to enjoy every moment I had with people because you never know when it's gone. I'd tell myself to study more- to commit myself fully to my learning after I left school. I'd tell myself that no matter how bad things seem at the time they DO get better in the end.. I'd tell myself to concentrate more on my writing .I'd tell myself not to let opportunities pass by. To live life to the full every minute of everyday, to feel lucky every day to be alive, and to just have fun!

Honestly- I think Half-Blood Prince has to be mine- I could read that book forever. It's got everything in it, mystery, romance, comedy and one of the best endings ever. Seriously once I get to The Cave- I don't stop reading until the end. I must however say that once I do finish that I pick Deathly Hallows up right away because I think they just flow so well into one another...

Recently...over the last few days, Robert Pattinson has been mobbed on the streets of NYC has he's been filming. This is not a good thing. I think perhaps we need to take a step back and learn to respect RPatzz and other actors/singers/famous people we like. There's an awesome site that has set up this campaign so please check it out http://www.letmesign.com/respectme
Having seen just how distressed Rob looked in the video of the mob, I have now decided that I will not be looking at anymore pap pics from the filming of Remember Me.
So basically people what I'm saying is please Respect RPatz, Respect anyone in the public eye, they don't deserve to be treated like crap. Thanks.

Okay so I have decided that I am going to find the person who invented mega-week at work and kill them. Seriously. This week has been totally crap to say the least. I have a cold for a start, so i've felt really under the weather. And then I've worked 3 out of 4 last shifts, 11.15pm on Wednesday and Thursday and then 8.15 tonight. So picture this: me, feeling very tired and very poorly. Now mix in staffing issues- we've been understaffed due to one of the team being off sick, add a sprinkling of a supervisor who really doesn't know what she's doing or gives a damn about it all, then just a dash of annoying sales manager who isn't all bad but that's kinda the problem and surprise ingredient named the past catching up with me and you have the perfect recipe for the week for hell. I got this message from an old friend who I haven't seen in like 3 years, she lives in the states, she wanted my mailing address as she has something to send me. I have no idea what. She's the sister of this guy that i really liked. I pretty much think I loved him, so I have all these feelings coming out again and it's not doing me any good.

I have to work again tomorrow and then I have Monday off. I'm going to Birmingham. Meeting up with Lucy and we're going to see John Barrowman and Danny Boys in concer!!! CANNOT WAIT!!! but i have get through the day tomorrow before I can think about Monday. I think John and Danny are going to get me through the day to be honest. Anyways, feeling kinda better now i've written this. Wish me luck for tomorrow x x

......sorry. Things are good :D I have a new obsession! All thing twilight are now my absolute love! :D I went off to a twi con in February and met Kellan Lutz, Peter Facinelli, Ashley Greene, Justin Chon and Christian Serrantos :D Twas way awesome . It was such a great experience! Am also getting very very hooked on The Mentalist :D Simon Baker is so very gorgeous!! :D Sooooo work is kinda ok now.... Ish. Sometimes it's awful and sometimes it's pretty fun! I will update in more detail soon! Promise x x

I'm sick of my father, seriously I am. Today he's lost his damn dentures again, said that mum had put them somewhere, asked me where that was, like I'm supposed to know where my mother puts things. Turns out that they were sat in the bathroom still in their pot. So I took them in and then told him that in future it didn't take much to get out of bed and check where they are himself. But no of course not, he can't do that cos he's not well. Well tough. This whole damn family makes to much out of the illnesses they have. My half-sister is the best one for that. So anyways Dad gets all arsey, tells me not to yell at him and I tell him that I can do what I like.

And you know what I can. I'm an adult now, I don't need tell off if I swear, or if I have an opinion, like the one about him needind to take resposibiltly for his things. I've got enough to think about without him putting more on me. I'm 20 years old and I quite honestly have no idea what I want to do with my life. I've got options, not all of them great but some of them are amazing, I'm going to audition for I'd Do Anything on Friday, I'm gonna try my hardest to get somewhere with it, even if it's just to the workshop so I can work out if Musical Theatre is right for me. I would just like for once for my dad to accept me for the person I am. Not try and change me into the person he wants me to be. It's so annoying. Just cos he messed up with my of my half-siblings doesn't mean he has to try and make me the perfect one. He's so controlling when it comes to what I can and can't do, he needs to look at himself and want he needs to change about himself before he starts putting the blame on me.

I just feel like crap for various reasons at the moment. One of those is coming down from the fangirling high of Sunday. Went to see the last performance of Aladdin with John Barrowman in it and it was awesome, so pumped up about that so coming back down quite literally hurts. One day I'll learn that these events are like an addiction and coming down from a high is a bad thing. One day, hopefully not soon though!

You know the one thing that I love about the way I feel, it's the fact that I know once I hit the post button I'll feel better about it all, cos it'll be out of my system , I just need to relax, to not worry about what other people are doing, I need to focus on me and my dreams on what I want to achieve, when I can work out what that is.

On the topic of John, I read his book in 4 days, and you know what, it's the best read I've had in a long time, he just makes me more determined to follow my musical theatre dream, it's always been a passion of mine and I'd love to take it further, I just wish I had realised a hell of a lot sooner. Gonna stop now and post before I write a whole essay :-)
*Takes a deep breath and smiles!*

OKAY so this time last year I was counting down until the Doctor Who concert, this year I'm counting down until I start my job! I'm gonna be working at Debenhams and I'm really looking forward to it. :-) It's amazing how much has changed this year. I don't regret leaving Uni in January, I know I wasn't happy there and now I have the world at my feet, a job, a great calling with the youth, great friends who I can rely upon. and then best thing is that my writing has really improved. And I know that's where I really wanna end up working, somewhere I can write for a living!

x

This is my first Ten/Jack fic. Enjoy.
Title: You Exist
Author: Tardisgal
Prompt used: During the year that never was Jack somehow manages to get some time alone with and un-aged Doctor. They discuss "People you fancy and who don't know you even exist." Smut ensuses
Rating: Well there's smut so work it out

( You exist.... )

<lj-cut text="Here be dragons">

OR are there. Are there dragons around?? maybe?

</lj-cut>

OMG!! That was great- Is anyone else dead?? Cos I am. The first time Yana heard those drums I knew! I just knew. I mean I knew that the Master was coming back and I had an idea that the Proffesor was actually the Master but I NEVER expected that. The Fob watch and everything. And the TARDIS being stolen :( not good. 
And JACK! Flirting with Ten! And Ten was soooo flirting back :) That made me smile. A lot. Forget Ten/Rose- there's a new ship in town! Ten/Jack all the way baby! so much more I wanna say but it'll come out incoherent right now!

Moosey x