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16 April 2009 @ 09:45 pm
......sorry. Things are good :D I have a new obsession! All thing twilight are now my absolute love! :D I went off to a twi con in February and met Kellan Lutz, Peter Facinelli, Ashley Greene, Justin Chon and Christian Serrantos :D Twas way awesome . It was such a great experience! Am also getting very very hooked on The Mentalist :D Simon Baker is so very gorgeous!! :D Sooooo work is kinda ok now.... Ish. Sometimes it's awful and sometimes it's pretty fun! I will update in more detail soon! Promise x x
Current Mood: happyhappy
Current Music: The Mentalist
23 July 2008 @ 05:10 am
Well hello there people!!! I'm finally here on my big family vacation! Staying in Kissimmee, FL in a gorgeous little villa, (I say little what I mean is 6 bedrooms, a gorgeous living area and a huge pool! It took a while to get here and I almost killed most of my family on the way but hey hey, I"m here now and that's all that matters. Just caught up on some sleep except my body's telling me it's like 10am when it's 5am! So I'm up and all raring to go! Will keep you guys posted for the next 4 weeks!
Current Music: crickets chirping!
30 January 2008 @ 07:58 pm
I'm sick of my father, seriously I am. Today he's lost his damn dentures again, said that mum had put them somewhere, asked me where that was, like I'm supposed to know where my mother puts things. Turns out that they were sat in the bathroom still in their pot. So I took them in and then told him that in future it didn't take much to get out of bed and check where they are himself. But no of course not, he can't do that cos he's not well. Well tough. This whole damn family makes to much out of the illnesses they have. My half-sister is the best one for that. So anyways Dad gets all arsey, tells me not to yell at him and I tell him that I can do what I like.

And you know what I can. I'm an adult now, I don't need tell off if I swear, or if I have an opinion, like the one about him needind to take resposibiltly for his things. I've got enough to think about without him putting more on me. I'm 20 years old and I quite honestly have no idea what I want to do with my life. I've got options, not all of them great but some of them are amazing, I'm going to audition for I'd Do Anything on Friday, I'm gonna try my hardest to get somewhere with it, even if it's just to the workshop so I can work out if Musical Theatre is right for me. I would just like for once for my dad to accept me for the person I am. Not try and change me into the person he wants me to be. It's so annoying. Just cos he messed up with my of my half-siblings doesn't mean he has to try and make me the perfect one. He's so controlling when it comes to what I can and can't do, he needs to look at himself and want he needs to change about himself before he starts putting the blame on me.

I just feel like crap for various reasons at the moment. One of those is coming down from the fangirling high of Sunday. Went to see the last performance of Aladdin with John Barrowman in it and it was awesome, so pumped up about that so coming back down quite literally hurts. One day I'll learn that these events are like an addiction and coming down from a high is a bad thing. One day, hopefully not soon though!

You know the one thing that I love about the way I feel, it's the fact that I know once I hit the post button I'll feel better about it all, cos it'll be out of my system , I just need to relax, to not worry about what other people are doing, I need to focus on me and my dreams on what I want to achieve, when I can work out what that is.

On the topic of John, I read his book in 4 days, and you know what, it's the best read I've had in a long time, he just makes me more determined to follow my musical theatre dream, it's always been a passion of mine and I'd love to take it further, I just wish I had realised a hell of a lot sooner. Gonna stop now and post before I write a whole essay :-)
*Takes a deep breath and smiles!*
Current Location: Home
30 December 2007 @ 05:22 pm
Been thinking. It's the end of the year, soon 2007 will be just memories, some of them bad, most of them awesome. But I used to do this. To sit and think back about the year and what I achieved, what I've done.

This year started badly... I left Uni after deciding it wasn't for me, had no prospects so I took a few months out to get used to being at home and in that time  I spent less time at home than I ever have before, I've lost count of the times I've seen good old London Town and the beautiful city of Cardiff this year, for various things. But there's no denying it, doing it made me forget how awful I had felt in 2006. I've had a blast this year, meeting new people who I have grown to love. I started my own forum, a kinda anti-dote to the other place where the rules were getting us down. Through that I've become a writer. Before that I was just someone who wrote, now I know that writing is in my blood, it's what I want to do.

I've changed so much this year, I feel like a totally different person, I have the confidence to believe in myself, to reach for my dreams, no matter how high they seem. I am truly grateful to all the people that have helped in this amazing transformation.

I lost my grandmother this year, saying goodbye to her is the hardest goodbye I've ever had to say, she was my rock in so many ways, she understood me, encouraged me and I miss her greatly, but I know that one day I will see her again and I can show her what I achieved with my life.

At points during the year I wanted to give up on life, because there were things in my past that wouldn't go away, people that I couldn't let go of, but recently I've begum to understand that I can't let go of them because they've helped me grow so much. I missed greatly but I live in hope of seeing them again at some point in my life.

This year I met John Barrowman, twice, and I'm gonna do a review of my fangirling year BUT for now all I will say is that he has inspired me in so many ways and made me realise that I should follow my dreams and just give things a go.

The past 7 weeks I've been working at Debenhams in the town and I've loved it, it's helped me break down issues I had about myself, made me feel like part of a team again. I'll miss working with them but I know that there must be something else out there for me, I've just gotta find it.

2008 looks like it may be a good year, a great one in fact. I've got an oppurtunity to try and reach a life-long dream, I've got so much to look forward to, so many goals I want to achieve. AND I've got the faith in myself to do it. Things are looking up, it shoudl be an exciting year hopefully!

SO yes, thanks to everyone who has crossed my path this year and who has changed my life not only for the better but "for good"
Helen x x
Current Location: Home
Current Music: Dido- This Land Is Mine
26 October 2007 @ 01:29 am
OKAY so this time last year I was counting down until the Doctor Who concert, this year I'm counting down until I start my job! I'm gonna be working at Debenhams and I'm really looking forward to it. :-) It's amazing how much has changed this year. I don't regret leaving Uni in January, I know I wasn't happy there and now I have the world at my feet, a job, a great calling with the youth, great friends who I can rely upon. and then best thing is that my writing has really improved. And I know that's where I really wanna end up working, somewhere I can write for a living!

Current Location: Computer
Current Mood: tiredtired
Current Music: What is This Feeling- wicked.
27 August 2007 @ 04:51 pm
This is my first Ten/Jack fic. Enjoy.
Title: You Exist
Author: Tardisgal
Prompt used: During the year that never was Jack somehow manages to get some time alone with and un-aged Doctor. They discuss "People you fancy and who don't know you even exist." Smut ensuses
Rating: Well there's smut so work it out

You exist....Collapse )
Current Mood: happyhappy
Current Music: Tell Me It's Not True- Blood Brothers
23 August 2007 @ 11:12 pm
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23 August 2007 @ 10:19 pm
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OR are there. Are there dragons around?? maybe?

23 August 2007 @ 09:56 pm

Do you know what?? Tonight I hate technology. Every time I try a lj-cut they don't work. Any one got any tips for me???? Any one?

16 June 2007 @ 11:47 pm
OMG!! That was great- Is anyone else dead?? Cos I am. The first time Yana heard those drums I knew! I just knew. I mean I knew that the Master was coming back and I had an idea that the Proffesor was actually the Master but I NEVER expected that. The Fob watch and everything. And the TARDIS being stolen :( not good. 
And JACK! Flirting with Ten! And Ten was soooo flirting back :) That made me smile. A lot. Forget Ten/Rose- there's a new ship in town! Ten/Jack all the way baby! so much more I wanna say but it'll come out incoherent right now!

Moosey x