Been thinking. It's the end of the year, soon 2007 will be just memories, some of them bad, most of them awesome. But I used to do this. To sit and think back about the year and what I achieved, what I've done.
This year started badly... I left Uni after deciding it wasn't for me, had no prospects so I took a few months out to get used to being at home and in that time I spent less time at home than I ever have before, I've lost count of the times I've seen good old London Town and the beautiful city of Cardiff this year, for various things. But there's no denying it, doing it made me forget how awful I had felt in 2006. I've had a blast this year, meeting new people who I have grown to love. I started my own forum, a kinda anti-dote to the other place where the rules were getting us down. Through that I've become a writer. Before that I was just someone who wrote, now I know that writing is in my blood, it's what I want to do.
I've changed so much this year, I feel like a totally different person, I have the confidence to believe in myself, to reach for my dreams, no matter how high they seem. I am truly grateful to all the people that have helped in this amazing transformation.
I lost my grandmother this year, saying goodbye to her is the hardest goodbye I've ever had to say, she was my rock in so many ways, she understood me, encouraged me and I miss her greatly, but I know that one day I will see her again and I can show her what I achieved with my life.
At points during the year I wanted to give up on life, because there were things in my past that wouldn't go away, people that I couldn't let go of, but recently I've begum to understand that I can't let go of them because they've helped me grow so much. I missed greatly but I live in hope of seeing them again at some point in my life.
This year I met John Barrowman, twice, and I'm gonna do a review of my fangirling year BUT for now all I will say is that he has inspired me in so many ways and made me realise that I should follow my dreams and just give things a go.
The past 7 weeks I've been working at Debenhams in the town and I've loved it, it's helped me break down issues I had about myself, made me feel like part of a team again. I'll miss working with them but I know that there must be something else out there for me, I've just gotta find it.
2008 looks like it may be a good year, a great one in fact. I've got an oppurtunity to try and reach a life-long dream, I've got so much to look forward to, so many goals I want to achieve. AND I've got the faith in myself to do it. Things are looking up, it shoudl be an exciting year hopefully!
SO yes, thanks to everyone who has crossed my path this year and who has changed my life not only for the better but "for good"
Helen x x
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